i can't hanlde more than two doctor appointments in one week....while my physical well-being is important, it cannot come at the cost of my mental well being

plus it messes up my eating schedule and i'm forced to sustain myself on generic jolly ranchers from the receptionist's desk

i never look at the scale when they weigh me because i'd rather not know how fat i am, but the nurse always calls out my weight...hellloooo, why do you think my eyes are closed?!


i feel bad that i'm turning into an asshole....i get mad when people touch/bump into me in public...if someone accidently bumps into me i either want to cry or shove them into a wall...i didn't get out of bed until 5pm yesterday because i wasn't feeling well....at 5 i forced myself to shower and then i went out to get something to eat....i tried to eat a cookie but i couldn't because i don't deserve to indulge myself....itnstead i sat in the corner of the restraunt eating soup and glaring at anyone who dared to walk by and smile at me....like i want people watching me eat

I just noticed that the title to my previous blog was "law schools"......I was in the middle of filling out law school applications and I meant to write a blog on how I only applied to one undergraduate school (providence college) because applications are a bitch and i can't take anything seriously for more than 10 minutes

my new favorite place is "Its a Grind" Coffee shop